Monday, January 10, 2005
why do i care so much what ppl think or feel anyway? why do i care so much if i hurt them or if i said sth wrong that made them angry? they are just my friends. heck they're not even my friends. they're my BAND MATES. heck one of them isnt even my band mate. he's just a GUEST PLAYER. i care only for my music. i dun care for them. i care for the welfare of my band. not them.

concert coming. i must stop teetering off the edge. a secret smile a shared wink set my thoughts on my fire. why do i keep thinking tt they are keeping sth from me? that they are talking abt me behind my back? this is just plain rubbish. i will stop talking to them altogether.

ignore. ignore. ignore. talk when they talk. shut up when im not required. i talk too much for my own good.

how could i be so stupid as to tell him tt i treat everyone the same? did i knw tt when i treated everyone the same i shouldnt expect the same? learning lessons the hard way. riah riah. when will u ever learn? why should you treat everyone so well? look at firdauz. too nice he delays payment. look at fiq. too nice he starts breaking promises. look at everybody. too nice they start to ignore. they're not friends. they are idiots.

see. getting off track. start to focus.

im sorry babe. ive been unfair to you. do i remind you of your ex? im so sorry sweetie. im really sorry. u've not even been complaining since ive started to spend less time with you. and each chance i get i jump at your throat.

=(. i love u babes. muah.


riahh ranted at 9:44:00 PM