Friday, January 21, 2005
im an over emotional basket case. easily jealous. and ultra sensitive. SO SHOOT ME. bleah. im not the person tt he fell in love with. i kw that. i can see that so clearly. whats wrong with me? why have i become so ultra clingy. ultra irritating. ultra jealous. ultra hot tempered. ultra everything? even if im not pissing him off [which i knw for sure i am] im pissing myself off. he used to have lesser time for me then. he only had two off days after every two days of work. and even then. one day was used to rest up. and the other day he spent it with me. sometimes after shift 2 he would take the time to come down and spend time with me. and he'd write me poems. and who the hell am i kidding? ppl change. ppl move on. nth stays the same forever. cause the world keeps on turning. and so things will never stop changing.

guess i had things to occupy me tt time. i wasnt so ultra irritating back then. what has happened to me now? grrrr. guess so many things has happened. ppl come and ppl go. and yeah. i guess. the world is still turning. and it'll never stop.

i hope moo moo wont go now. i hope he wont be another clarence. i hope he wont find someone better than me. and look? dont i sound clingy again? its a free world. i dun own anybody. all i ask is for someone to stick with me. and tolerate my nonsense.

tts why. riah and zc are friends forever! =)


riahh ranted at 1:07:00 AM