Friday, January 07, 2005
the day cannot get any worse. ive had enough for one day. my patience have truly been tested. first thing in the morning a broken promise. late for band. tone sucked. mr tay cant stop yabbering away. complaining abt every single thing. from the band's intonation to the trumpet's tuning to the pieces we play to the way I play to the way andy play to the way i move the trombone to follow the conductor to the conductor himself. whatever. next. got stood up. maisarah made me wait for an hour. didnt even have time to eat. rushed to meet fiee after tt. nth to do. met with andy and cheryl. froze half to death in the salon. ate a measly dinner. went home. chased the bus. bus didnt stop. ezlink no kaching. WHATEVER.

cat greeted me at the door. lovely little puss. tt was the only good thing that happened today. went online. sudden urge to change skin. and ended up with this old one. missed it loads. woo hoo. pretty ehh?

went to read his blog. if what i have said so far has hurt you den i apologise. but its someone else that i was upset with. over this u want to lose a friendship? ok fine. i really have nothing to say. if all it takes is for me to apologise to u and to her den apologise i will. u are a great person and seriously i have no qualms being friends with you. but why the heck should i bother anyway? i knw i was pretty rude to u today in band. i was just bloody pissed and u caught me at the wrong moment. whatever u want to say from now on. u just say. and yes. in case it makes u happy. ur entry hurt me. a lot.

im really sick of being me. ask me to be? this is me. but no. everybody hates this riah. she sucks. big time. didnt u knw that? how sad. stay far far away from me. i might just mess ur life up. make ur life miserable. and u will very well end up hating me.

i dun wan to bother abt anything now. i dun wan to think abt anything now. novocaine. hey queena does it work? i should try it sometime. numb me till the concert's over. so i wont feel a single emotion. wont let it get to me. wont let it mess me up. wont let it affect my performance. but then again. so easy to say. so difficult to do.

ah heck. just focus. FOCUS. focus on band band band.


riahh ranted at 1:06:00 AM