Sunday, January 30, 2005
im relieving the days of jubilance as i spent today listening to band songs tt i have never heard in a long time. no ross roys. celebrations. blue ridges. no big fun. centurias. or those pop pieces. listening to beautiful melodies like portrait of freedom. the iliad. and shirim. the likes of it.

smiling as the trumpet opening tunes overwhelm me. smiling as i imagine my own trumpeters delievering the solo. smiling as i think of my flautists answering their questions. smiling as i imagine looking at the people in the audience. smiling as i imagine refat standing up there conducting. imagining awe and silence in the audience. what a wonderful thing imagination is. bringing u thru wonderful stories. places and situations.

i imagine jubilance two to be more grandeur than jubilance one. playing pieces tt far surpasses ross roy. playing pieces of more enjoyment. of more scoldings. of more runnings. of more sweat. of more tears. and of a stronger bond.

can i put a stop to this endless days of waiting and waiting? can i wake up one morning and smile and think 'yay! we're trying a new piece today!'? can i just say abacadabra alakazoom. and everything will be fine and dandy? sigh.

band changed my whole life. and i need it more than ever.


riahh ranted at 5:26:00 PM