Sunday, December 26, 2004
hmm. band band band. everyone is upset abt band. why? *wonders* i just have a feeling tt everything will turn out fine. i trust my instinct. do you? so many ppl backing out. whats the big fuss? arent we playing without them now? so even if they really dun come back.. so? their leaving is just like an official thing. the ppl who are quitting are the ones who dun contribute much to the band. why the worries?

now not the time to worry abt this. now not the time to worry abt anything at all. now is the time to worry abt PLAYING TOGETHER. tts all. *scratch scratch* yep tts all what. i think the utmost importance is to play together. once we get tt down pat. we work on being musical. we got the songs done. we need to be cleaner. clearer. no more muddy banks. now we need to unearth the diamonds beneath these muddy waters. these muddy running notes. find those shiny diamonds. that clear shiny notes. hmm. AFTER WE LEARN TO PLAY TOGETHER.

clarence told me tt queena is better than the ppl who are quitting. because she is still standing there. i beg to differ please. yes she is still standing there. but is she producing whatever she has been PRACTISING? clarence. u vomit how much blood how many organs already teaching her. sectional with her. guiding her. advising her. pushing her. slapping her. but is she taking to heart what u taught her? she still comes back to prac with the same mistakes.

ppl. worry abt the right things. why waste so much time on the wrong things? make do with what u have now la. u already have been struggling without them. task task.

anglican high concert today. hmm. i was pretty satisfied with tt one. but he said tt we sounded better than them. so i asked him to teach me what is good sound what is bad sound. sometimes what i think is good is not good to him. and what i think is lousy is very good to him. hmm. today he was very very very sweet to me. i dun wan to say anything. i dun want to ask anything. i just know today im very happy. =). ate a lot. getting fatter. instead of losing 7 im gaining 7. happppppy!

and wth. im still not worried for the band.


riahh ranted at 11:55:00 PM