Saturday, December 25, 2004
ok. im an alien. tts abt it. tts the whole point of it. bleah. an alien with SERIOUS attitude problem lor. wth. ppl affected by band yest. BUT NOT ME!! why why why?! why do ppl feel stuff inside? why do they feel like stabbing themselves? why do they fear attendance in the mornings? why do they feel so stressed out? why do they feel so lost so hurt so demoralised after yest's prac? ARGH. i really dun feel a thing. i have what they call ATTITUDE problem. serious attitude problem. i should take out a mirror and look at myself.

even if i dun feel stressed looking at my own section knwing tt we're pretty much settled why cant i look at other sections? look at wency. see how much she CARES for the band. how much she worries for the band. her section pretty much like mine also. pretty much there. see how ppl are more inclined to talk to her abt the band. lay out their worries. lay out their frustrations. their anger. wth. i go there happy happy. go back also happy happy. UNAFFECTED. wth.

im just confused. i claim i care for the band. i think its all bullshit. and wth. im supposed to be worrying for the band right? not writing here and complaining and WONDERING WTH IS WRONG WITH ME. must ask clarence to slap me sia. help me wake up. sighh.

loves goes nowhere in the band. NOWHERE. so wake up wake up wake up! even he say i got attitude problem. yest i really felt like leaving lor. wth? ATTITUDE PROBLEM.

CLARENCE I NEED A SLAP!! sighh.

oh and go watch national treasure. its nice.


riahh ranted at 10:27:00 PM