Monday, October 25, 2004
he's read it.. i duno what im supposed to feel.. i just wana feel anything other than what im feeling now..

"tell u wat babes.. just tell mimi next time.. nicely.. nt to swear when ur around .. cos ur trying to change to be a better person.. she will understand.. hope shes nt that dumb.. if nt then if she swears u just smile la... and think this way... everytime u swear u wun get to hold me even for 1 day.. if u break the pact u will be guilty and the guilt will eat u from inside.."

so what am i supposed to say?! im in the wrong.. so im guilty.. i duno i duno i duno i duno i DUNO!.. i dun wana talk abt anything.. at the same time i wana let him knw that im sorry.. but no.. im nt supposed to hold him? he says i dun have to let him knw.. tts not curbing my problem.. tts not doing anything to it..

he's still hung up abt arsenal losing.. cant blame him.. sighh ='(.. oh god all i wana do now is just cry.. cry.. and cry to sleep.. -sobs-.. im the one with the problem not him.. he's still cheerful.. he's still my baby.. -cries to sleep-


riahh ranted at 1:26:00 AM