the drama queen.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

hmm.. sch opened tis week.. whoo.. getting into the hang of things.. knw what i want now and am working towards it.. think the talk for the parents abt the options after o's were pretty useful.. hee.. hoping that i can get into milennia institute.. needa get just a b4 for 5 subjects.. oh man.. gota work harder.. praying that i already secure a 1 for eng.. can afford 3 more grades for 4 other subjects.. hmm.. wondering if they have a band? =P.. hee..

reali getting into the mode of studying.. but sighh.. it may seem a little too late.. but am not giving up hope.. perservering.. sighh tts why must stay in sch and do one.. cannot see my comp.. if not sure will online until can forget the time.. gona read my book a little and den i think will read a little more of ss.. i think i can finish studying for ss tis week.. woo.. great! hee..

sighh.. sometimes i reali wonder what i did for bringing refat in? hee.. i think what he said is true.. one tiny praise already make us so swollen headed.. and it DOES take one to knw one.. so many ppl say that wency changed a lot since becoming SC.. say what she so dua bai when she's only SC.. cant even conduct properly.. go nco camp also no use.. sighh and its always azman voicing tis kind of comments abt other ppl.. not only wency.. he seems esp keen abt my section as well.. he said i didnt have technique didnt have tone.. not fit to be a sec four player.. usually i just shut up and take it in.. keeping it in mind that i gota improve myself next prac.. he says the only sec 4s he sees that are fit to be sec 4s are hao and kelvin..

he even has to attack the sec ones.. my god its a good thing that they dunno abt it.. its sure to hurt them.. u just gota keep on encouraging them.. they're willing to learn.. i think they just dun have the strength.. and due to neglect for the past few months.. their interest may have faded.. but tis bunch is very enthu.. hopefully now that we've stepped down.. more attention given to them.. and they can emerge as good players.. great even.. i mean its one thing to attack me.. but my juniors? they've hardly done much with their instruments.. i should think think that i would have more right to say whether they've got attitude or not.. just so ur one of the best clarinetist and ur section is fast doesnt mean that u can be so big headed.. just because ppl praise u all de time u cant even accept one remark abt ur sax playing.. like stop bearing a grudge and look at urself in the mirror..

he's the band major.. instead of downtrodding ppl he should encourage us.. i mean.. reali u knw.. he can be so irritating at times.. he's not even THAT responsible.. cant even take the key on time.. hard to reach.. last to knw abt practically everything.. sighh..

since refat stepped in.. kind of like so many political wars happening.. so many ppl vying for attention.. for importance.. for post.. i mean i brought him in for some improvements in the playing and stuff.. i didnt knw it would cause us so much problems.. sighh..

riahh ranted at 8:36:00 PM