the drama queen.

Sunday, August 15, 2004

i wish i can tell piggy every minute of everyday just how much i love and cherish him.. how much he reali means to me.. how much i need him.. gosh i think he's the only one who can stand me when im in ma mood swings.. he's such a stupid fellow.. and i so love him..

he's right.. instead of wallowing in self pity and my supposed 'depression'.. i should get out there and think of the things that i have and not what im missing out on.. im a family person.. if i cant have what i want.. instead of feeling sad.. i should think of what i have now.. and how many ppl are killing to be in my shoes right now..

life's not a movie.. i should stop being all drama mama and focus on the good things in life.. i should stop thinking of running away.. i should start studying.. gosh there's just so many things for me to do.. where to start?.. how to start?.. i gotta learn first of all to take charge of ma emotions.. to control it and not let it control me.. and then i have to get my life back on track.. stop dreaming and come back to reality.. sandcastles in the air dun last forever.. love doesnt solve everything.. it doesnt earn me good grades.. a place in jc.. but it does make me happy.. and im holding on to it..

i treasure my pigs a whole lot.. i wish he would knw that.. i wish he would knw that sometimes i do things that are stupid and silly and dramatic because i want his attention.. it feels good to knw that someone cares..

been getting headaches nowadays.. it'd just come suddenly.. panicking.. whats wrong with me?

riahh ranted at 11:32:00 PM