the drama queen.

Sunday, August 29, 2004

i dreamt abt hamsters again last night.. hmm i wonder why.. o.O?.. nvm that.. woke up late today.. rolled arnd a bit.. many things came to mind.. oh my god.. today is sunday.. one day after saturday.. one day after stepping down from the band.. tis is it.. feels so weird.. looking back.. tis past year.. over a matter of months.. so many memories.. so many laughter.. so many tears.. disappointment.. euphoria.. everything.. it just wont be the same anymore coming back to play for the cluster thing.. we have just dipped our toes in.. cold at first.. but getting use to it.. slowly succumbing to the the chill.. relishing the warmth one may find underneath.. getting ready to take the plunge.. excited at what may come charging at us.. ready to take it on.. but.. its over..

woke up feeling empty again.. arghhh.. god i miss him.. more and more and more.. i was looking thru my messages.. my photos.. the phone that piggy got for me.. it holds many memories.. he was there when i was at my lowest.. when i was stuck in a corner.. when i was happy.. when i was sick.. he always sayang sayang me to sleep.. always humor me when im angry.. telling me precious words of advice.. he listened when i talked.. he hugged me when im cold.. he kissed me when i was feeling playful.. =P

i dun think i have done that much for him.. always flying off the handle.. haha =).. ah well.. i tot i had it all under control.. so did he.. hmm hormones.. i just love my baby.. more than anything in the world.. anything he wants i will do for him.. anything he needs i will get for him.. i just love him so!.. love love babes.. =P.. ppl can doubt my love for u but u never shld.. hehe.. not tt u have.. oh well =P..

mUack babes.. wakey soon =)

riahh ranted at 3:44:00 PM