the drama queen.

Sunday, August 01, 2004

right.. intelligent.. so far i aint doing well in that department.. i guess i just cant get use to piggy getting to knw his students well.. be it boys or girls.. after what happened last night.. well.. i guess im still a little shallow in the shallow department.. sighh.. fancy screaming at the top of my voice tt i didnt wana sit with piggy.. i guess he knew but he didnt say anything.. gosh i was supposed to be a nice and understanding girlfriend.. not an overly emotional basketcase.. fie and yew hao told me to cool it.. after all its NOTHING.. they are just his STUDENTS.. yeah im trying to believe that and whats coming to mind is one of pigs' pet phrase 'its all in the mind babes..' i guess tts what's reali going on.. yup yup so will try harder to be less jealous.. gawd.. im always telling ppl tt im happy and stuff.. and i reali am.. sheesh.. its just tt i dun tell ppl when im reali upset.. and yeah to the small little grp of people reading ma blog.. its impossible to have a great relationship without having to go thru scrapes.. take it frm me.. even tho the scrapes tt me and piggy have is like erm.. can count on one hand.. still it strengthens the relationship.. especially if its those cases where u sit down together and work things out.. come to a compromise and come out stronger.. tts just me and pigs..

yup yup.. one of my friends jasmine.. am afraid tt she'll slip into depression soon.. what happened in physics on thursday came as a shock to many of us.. didnt knw such ppl existed in tis world.. how can anyone ever have a mum who's like tt? sighhh..

my band.. what is my band? what REALLY is my band? i read other ppl's blog.. i know what their band reali is like.. i read of their pain.. of their laughter.. of their joy.. of their love.. their passion.. their sadness.. their disappointment.. their triumph.. can my band be like that? what we're going through seem so superficial compared to other bands.. i feel sad.. i think mr refat came in just a wee bit too late.. our last year here and changes are just being made.. i want to go thru what others went thru.. AS A BAND.. i want to go thru the same pain.. fight with determination and come out triumphant and say that we have done it.. AS A BAND.. what im feeling as i read their blog is indescribable.. its just an overwhelming feeling of sadness.. i dun have a band.. if only a small group of ppl are working hard at it den it aint the same.. my band is just a place where ppl gather to play music.. and at the end of the day head home feeling.. nothing.. tt aint right.. i want ppl going home feeling.. something.. anger at being reprimanded or criticised by mr refat that our juniors play better than us.. determined to prove to him that we CAN do it.. happy that we have played through ONE bar well as a section as well as a BAND.. i want ppl to feel these.. can they? can they mr refat? =(..

riahh ranted at 3:56:00 PM