the drama queen.

Sunday, July 18, 2004

i duno why im so angry.. was blog hopping and went to read wency's blog cause she didnt update yesterday.. and she wrote in it that she she had been msging ~mr refat~ the whole day.. still was then as she was blogging.. which for ur bloody info was late at nyt.. when even I wasnt msging him.. and u tell me i shldnt be pissed?! i duno why i should be pissed also.. when all they did was talk abt the band and its future and stuff.. hell NO~! that didnt make me mad.. no im mad because.. im jealous =(.. and of wency some more.. what the heck is wrong with me? whats wrong whats wrong whats wrong?!?! =(.. and den refat also offered to pay for wency's piano lesson.. arghhhh!! no its not the money idiots!! its the gesture!! *sobs for a long time*

forget it.. who cares.. at least queena cursed and sweared at refat in her blog.. now tts sth else.. wasnt angry.. was just amused.. no im not a sadist.. it was reali funny.. so go read..

pretty bad week yeah? ok la some days were good.. like the two days which i spent with andy and yew hao.. spend money spend time but had a barrel of laughs also.. which im so not in the mood to talk abt.. im still upset!! doesnt anyone care?! i stopped on monday.. so yeah i'll start frm tuesday..

[1] tuesday [13 july 2004].. i guess nth much happened.. met up with refat? yeahh.. i guess.. went to eat and stuff and den headed home.. he told me tt he got three new scores and tt he wanted each section to pay 5 bucks for the photocopying of each set of scores.. like whatever.. sucks la.. started the new time table today.. see so many teachers' face in a day.. and then had bio tutorial.. tks win for tt pizza..

[2] wednesday [14 july 2004].. me and yew hao went to open band room.. stupid miss ang la.. nag nag nag.. duno why im sucking up to her also.. pretending to be nice and all tt.. the QM (razeenah and huey min) took the key first but then couldnt open the store room door cause the big lock was in place.. yeah so they signed out the key and me and yew hao signed it in again.. then they were having tt stupid musical.. so we waited till abt three thirty.. during which we went arnd the whole school looking for that mr yip or somebody.. the OM la.. to open the damned door.. and yeah at last we did it.. den we just practiced for like less than an hour.. i helped andy with celebration and dance and a few bars of eurobeat as well as ross roy.. the junior band kept on playing colors of the wind [talk abt boring] and they were pretty upset tt refat didnt include them in the concert.. they didnt want to play colors of the wind.. they said they wanted to try big fun and abba gold.. so yeah i told them that if tts what they want.. they gotta work towards it.. and tt stupid miss ang had to come and nag nag nag that 'students are not allowed to sign out any key if not.. bla bla bla [rolls eyes]..' and that 'miss chong said tt.. bla bla bla [rolls eyes some more]..' it was so pathetic.. i was just yeah yeah yeah.. and was trying to be nice to her and stuff.. after tt we packed up and headed home.. andy was asking me why i didnt quarrel with her and make her see things our way? cause my debating skills was so good and all.. sighhh.. no point arguing with her la.. she so unreasonable.. she dumb la she.. anyway we agreed tt every thursday we were gona open up the music room at 3.30 after the senior's tutorial.. bleahx.. andy choked on his coke when he saw miss ang's specs.. yeah it was bloody crooked.. went to mac with both my juniors [andy and tracy] and yew hao.. was like laughing all de way.. [and its like pretty dull writing abt tis now].. and yeah me made so much noise at mac.. we took so long to decide what we wanted to eat.. cause i was pretty broke.. and tracy didnt wana eat.. she just wanted THE DOG.. we all like siao like tt.. for almost 20 minutes just talk rubbish and laugh like mad and decide what we want to eat.. finally we settled for two sets of the 20 piece nuggets and one large coke.. yeah so we gt 4 tiny paper cups and divided the drinks.. and they laughed at the way i ate my nuggets.. i share with andy la.. after that we play with the sauces.. mix mix mix the thing.. pretty messy.. poor macdonald auntie.. yeah then we walked to interchange to take bus.. all of us took diff bus.. andy went first.. den tracy's yew hao's and my bus came together.. so we waved to each other like mad.. [yawn.. so boring relieving tis].. before tt we saw tis old man peeing at the corner.. talk abt eew.. and den he zipped up his pants without washing his hand.. pulled out a cigarette with the same hand and puffed away.. unhygienic..

[3] thursday [15 july 2004].. chased more ppl for the band money.. sian.. kena scolded for kapo lim for not doing duty.. i tot it was only me and olivia and big ben.. apparently there were loads more ppl.. yeah well the check was btw may duno when till then.. and i was like.. whoa so big ben was at the top of the list huh? so he didnt do like loads of duty.. and i was told that i was somewhere near the bottom of the list.. and u knw how many duties big ben missed? bingo.. 5!! my god.. if ben was five.. den me?! olivia got away with three.. and obviously my name wasnt there lor.. she was like looking thru so many times and she didnt call me.. she HAD to ask me how many i didnt do.. stupid lim.. purposely dilly dally cause after tt got lit tutorial.. which was a real bore.. kok is such an idiot.. i soo hate the way he speaks [urghhh!].. its so bloody slow and deliberate.. so grating on the nerves.. i wanted to smack him and asked him to get a move on.. he talked abt rubbish.. setting ground rules bla bla bla.. saying jokes that are soo lame, its pathetic.. i grouped with jon yew hao and queena.. just crapping during the grp work.. its like so dumb and boring.. and he called tis indian lady to sit in and stuff.. the miss gina or somebody.. she's like wasting her time lor.. we didnt need tis lessons.. we scraped thru the exams studying on our own.. dun believe me? sit in on his lessons.. be it english or lit and tell me what u learnt.. if u managed to learn sth.. what a miracle.. [rolls eyes].. and kok is trying to waste more of our money.. asked us to go for some play by susan hill.. the woman in black [tiao].. after wasting our money on all the useless things we had to buy tis year.. and tt eng functional writing course we attended in june.. we SOO didnt learn anything and we had to pay seventy bucks?! whatever..

after tt i called andy and we went to hang out at bugis.. yew hao was complaining as usual abt the lack of clothes for guys.. andy was a little late cause of the traffic jam.. so yeah first we went to eat at bk [yum yum].. cause well i was pretty lacking in cash.. den after tt we just walked arnd.. wanted to catch a movie but decided not to.. i wanted to save some movies for refat.. yep so we went straight to the photo place.. yeah.. we browsed thru some machines before deciding on one.. and tt was the flip flip thing.. LOL.. now tt was fun.. we were just screaming and laughing and having loads of fun.. posing and grinning away at the camera.. the photos were cute but we didnt design it so well.. yeah soo.. we decided to take another one.. haha that wasnt so wild.. but it turned out pretty great EXCEPT for the fact tt we didnt knw which side to decorate the pictures and so we didnt have enough time.. brrr.. so angry.. but yeah it was ok.. after tt we went to make the keychain for our instruments.. andy paid for me.. said it was a belated bday gift.. it says tbone in multicolor den a little silver tortoise and finally our initial.. mine is r and andy is a.. yeah and yew hao made one too but didnt put his initial.. and instead of a tortoise he has a giraffe.. both of them were such idiots.. they brought me to the cinema toilet and when i came out.. they shocked me.. and i screamed so loud.. goodness.. and yew hao was just like laughing and laughing.. idiot la both of them.. yep after tt we headed home.. pretty great day..

[4] friday [16 july 2004].. like the most horrible day ever~! lessons were pretty ok.. just that they were boring.. went to photocopy all ma scores.. and numbered them during lit [free] period.. yeahh and i snapped at yew hao cause he was like reading my diary.. one entry only lahh but still!! was so upset tt i teared.. yeah yew hao was pretty shocked and went the bell rang he was just standing there.. he ahh.. after that yeah we were ok already.. didnt eat.. went straight to band room and practiced.. we played celebration and dance together.. haha.. sounds good =).. i just sooo love music!! dun u? *wink.. anyway.. duno whats the big hoo ha but miss chong was upset abt some things and told us to practice elsewhere.. yeah so we set up in the hall.. there was some confusion abt whether there was any parade the next day.. finally we were told tt there was.. bleahx.. tt means marches.. and i bloody hate marches!! nt tt i cant play but because i just hate them.. its nt music u knw.. more like.. a rhythm sort of thingie.. tbone has a tag~! yeah.. but i took it home anyway.. just in case it goes missing [points finger at alumni].. i didnt say anything.. got a call frm yee aung.. she told me tt no one was playing for osprey [bball match] except for me and anica.. so yee aung stepped in.. tt idiotic moronic bimbotic kapo lim just so refused to let siti go.. and anica left after tt.. she said tt we were sure to lose.. i mean 3 to 5? yeah well she left and we were down to 2.. which was worse.. i didnt wana give up.. i still wanted to play.. it was raining like mad and the court was wet.. but NO.. that liem baybin [horse face] refused to postpone it.. all the teams playing today.. boys AND girls had missing ppl.. and she still refused.. i asked her if 2-5 was fair.. she still can tel me NO! [arghhh].. ran arnd the school like mad looking for ppl.. banged the music door damn hard when miss chong also wouldnt let siti go.. finally convinced anka and sherly to play.. they didnt help but i appreciated it all the same.. i played damn rough.. typical me when im in a bad mood.. score? too depressing.. please dun ask me.. went back to hall straight after tt.. where i attitude with practically everyone.. refat said bar 30 lor and me and litang were like.. huh?.. i didnt even bother to play.. just sat there and frowned.. packed up soon after.. went to eat dinner with refat at bk.. walked arnd a bit before sending me home.. there was tis idiotic indian guy who touched my butt in the bus.. he was so following me frm ps all de way to funan where he dropped off.. and refat was pretty ok abt it.. my mum was pretty ok abt it.. everyone was ok abt it.. fine.. let them all touch.. let them touch every single part of my body.. after all its pretty ok what.. refat gave me ten.. dun intend to spend it.. will return it to him soon.. dun need his $.. he can use it to pay for wency's piano lesson..

[5] saturday [17 july 2004].. boring day.. late again.. parade was at like 10 plus.. such a waste of time.. still not reali used to wency yet.. she's pretty short and she draws pretty small and her voice is so DARN soft.. cant hear what she's saying.. yepp but she's pretty good.. just need tt extra boost of confidence.. which refat can easily give her.. didnt touch on anything major.. just a bit here a bit there.. cartoon express is darn weird.. score was so funny.. that glissando was so wrong.. whatever.. will right it once refat comes to band.. andy told me tt he couldnt make it for our movie thing cause he had to send his grandma to simei there for his relative bday.. i told him its ok.. i'll just watch it with mai.. i gave her 25 bloody missed calls and she didnt pick up lor.. she called me at 2.15 but sighh.. never mind la.. was already at home.. went to eat lunch with andy opp.. yeah we were talking and i can see tt he had some personal probs.. he didnt have to tell me.. he left sentences hanging but i didnt push it.. i already can guess what his prob was.. couldnt nap.. when out by myself.. arranged my file and stuff.. scores were all over the place.. came home eight plus and waited for refat to get home.. didnt msg him much.. cause i scared he busy and stuff.. so went online and just surfed around.. sent him a happy anni msg at 12.. and went to roll arnd.. he msged me at two.. told me not to reply.. yeahh so i just slept till morning.. didnt sleep well.. was too sick to breathe properly.. my voice changed lor.. biang..

[6] sunday [18 july 2004].. yay.. six years spent with refat.. woke up feeling dazed.. cant breathe.. so horrible.. cant even smell my pillow anymore.. sigh.. no comfort.. mai asked me go fry egg for her.. LOL.. the stupid egg burst for no reason in the pan and squirted oil at ma face.. was so shocked.. was a little scalded.. but yeah i survived.. when i told mai she laughed.. idiot.. going out later for band fiesta.. hope it doesnt rain.. it looks pretty cloudy.. now still angry with refat.. msging him now.. sighhh

riahh ranted at 12:09:00 PM