Tuesday, July 06, 2004
wats wrong with me?! whats wrong with me?! WHATS WRONG WITH ME?! [erghh].. sorry leh pigs [sob sob].. me reali sorry.. didnt mean to do that wor [wahhhh].. forgive ok? if anything happened to us i knw its because of ma big mouth [smack smack hard hard].. no babe dun upset all.. i deserve tt =(.. ive been naughty.. i reali thought i being smart worr [=(].. i hope ur sis wont knw ok? so from now on im gona shush [=X] wont say anything no more.. promise!! believe me ar babes.. =(.. sorry sorry ok sweetie..

yest was youth day.. tt means holidays [bleahx].. mai and bro went to watch spidey 2.. so i accompany mummy go grocery shopping near there lor.. maybe it was the atmosphere or sth.. reali a lot of ppl.. a lot of noise.. and it got to me.. i was happy and smiling and laughing one second.. the next second totally snapped at mai and bro and even mummy.. cant stand it.. so many ppl at the theatre.. tempers flaring =(.. den grocery shopping [which i totally love btw] wasnt so much fun.. so many tidbits.. want to take all.. took sth.. put it back.. took sth else.. put it back again =(.. and why? scared not enough lor.. sian.. always like tis [=(].. ahh forget it arr.. after tt go eat.. sighh lost temper again.. wanted to buy hp cover.. the guy cheat me again.. lucky mummy there den we got back the $$.. was a very bad day i guess..

but pigs being pigs just made my day =).. i knew he was meeting a friend.. when i reached home and msged him he told me tt he was in the cinema.. watching a movie.. my heart sank [toopid hor?].. hee so i asked lor he watching what.. with who?.. reali hated myself.. sound so erm.. insecure [sighh].. yep.. and den he said watching whole ten yards with his friend who left for london.. hikx.. he added tt he saved spidey 2 fr me.. heee.. i fell aslp smiling =).. he called to wake me [love u sweetie!!].. den while ol i chatted with di di and he ask me i want how many tix.. so msg pigs lor.. wahh pigs order for me for maris band liao [sweetie!!].. den was sending songs.. chatting.. doing hw [o.0] and msging pigs.. so busy until never see my baby ol.. hehe he told me he wanted to make things easier for me cause i busy on the comp [=P].. love love pigs! hugs!.. hehe.. u thought that was nice? wait.. there's more.. pigs stayed up with me till 1 plus.. right until i finish my work.. he sed he wont turn in before me.. sighhh den i so nasty.. chat and do chat and do.. sowee arr piggy.. and when i thanked him.. he so gentleman all.. all he said was 'my pleasure..' hee went to sleep smiling again.. so happy until it took me a long time to fall asleep..

sighh.. still bothering me abt what i did just now.. =(.. hmmpff.. sori kaez pigs.. but im glad we talked it thru rationally.. like we always do.. never flare up and all.. i love u honey.. tks for being ma pillar of strength.. mUah [only for u now =)]

riahh ranted at 10:44:00 PM