Monday, July 12, 2004
i hate tis feeling.. when u bloody knw the tears are gonna come.. so? its my day.. my blog.. MY FEELINGS.. feel like total crap.. like kena eaten by a huge giant.. chewed and spat out [ergh].. gona start frm saturday [sighh].. many things happened over the weekend.. its gonna hard to stay focused.. so here goes..

[1] saturday [10 july 2004].. had band prac [finally!].. but unfortunately was late [tell me abt it].. kena tio 8 rnds.. biang.. so hot.. pigs on time today [wahh =)].. warmed up with centuria den we touched on celebration and dance.. hee [=P].. waited so long to have solo den i gabrah.. wah lao [erk].. play too fast or play too slow.. but i was happy being alone in ma section.. dun have to worry abt them not catching up and stuff.. tt piggy la!! since when i told him that i play the song until sian? [bleahx].. i just say me and yew hao run thru.. we didnt even run through the whole of the first page lor.. until bar 22.. den the last four bars.. wah he scold scold me and yew hao.. 'dun test my patience..' [argh!].. how i knw he want us to come in? i tot he telling us when to come in and stuff.. nt tt i cant play cause he scolded me but because june and queena the eyes like laser!! wah biang.. den always miss.. i think he knw la.. just dun wan to say [hehe].. he give 10 min break.. den piggy came over and asked me to try 76 tbones [=P].. he la.. teach me also smile smile.. so not serious one [LOL].. den pee came~! yay! she brought Ross Roy.. Just South of Utopia.. and Eurobeat Disney Medley [new scores.. rejoice!].. refat angry ar with the just south of utopia.. well its reali dead.. very much 'like a funeral piece..' [hee].. ross roy was whoaaa =P.. and eurobeat.. I LOVE!! so VERY challenging!! i hope piggy plays the actual tempo.. cant wait to master it =).. pee so cute.. she ahh like everytime i see her getting smaller and smaller.. she smile smile all =).. refat lent her alvamar in exchange for the scores.. she also came to collect the concert money.. before band dismiss.. refat called for a meeting.. in short.. litang demoted to ASST. secretary [no hard feelings but yeah she kinda deserved tt].. and jas lost her post.. =P.. i hope she gets too depressed and dun come for band or gets motivated to play better [which is very highly unlikely].. either way they still benefit me..

after band went to town.. watched spidey 2 [finally!] at PS.. went to bk for lunch.. piggy like crazee =P.. keep on singing and singing and singing.. and humming and humming and humming.. and his face so darn cute =P.. but during the movie piggy made me a little upset.. he kept on msging and msging for awhile before he finally stopped.. great movie btw.. after tt lost my voice cause of the sweet corn i ate =P.. i asked the guy put extra extra butter =P.. yum.. ate dinner like mad.. cant breathe.. chatted with piggy but was totally beat.. so went sleep earlier than usual =P..

[2] sunday [11 july 2004].. toopid piggy number 2 [MAI!] woke me up so early.. asked me go down to phil youth practice session.. whoaaa~.. luke call her she like so robot like that [LOL].. she la ask me call yew hao den head dwn to laselle first before going to botanic gardens together for the band fiesta.. so ok lor.. and mai being mai.. the dumbest little thing on earth.. whose brain is stuck in her backside.. she didnt tell luke tt she was bringing others along lor.. fortunately got extra tbone [bach!!] for me and a yamaha sax for mai.. but no eupho for yew hao [sorry hor =(].. warmed up with mai.. hikx.. the ppl there were friendly lor.. but pro also la.. LOL.. they all love challenging pieces.. tbone usually dun have running notes.. but those two guys [joel and someone else] were whoa.. hee.. very inspired =P.. mai got on well with natalie =).. glad to see that.. she is good.. but we were like damn extra and so damn pai sei =).. hee.. they have 2 conductors [mr yong or sth and mr allan lawrence].. fantastic conductors.. they sight read doraemon and jap 4.. tbone could master the solo within 2 tries [clap clap].. they were great techinically.. but tone wise at most.. a gold band =).. then had to chop chop go to botanic gardens.. kelvin they all late.. so me and yew hao sit with mai and her band.. miss tan and mai sit together =) [happy happy].. kenny was alone the poor donkey.. he was so eRgh!.. he was wearing tis jersey which says 'kenny 9+9' talk abt lame.. unless it meant sth else den i apologize la =).. miss tan i tink very close to mai.. hee.. very sweet hor? =P.. den kelvin.. his cousin.. kah heng and ming hwa came over.. we were sitting behind miss tan.. very inspiring.. so after the thing over they push me to miss tan and ask me to ask her to come down to our band.. worse than taking o lvl oral [LOL].. here goes..

ME: hi miss tan.. im Riah from Bukit Merah Band..
SHE: sorry.. you are..?
ME: Riah.. from Mr Refat's band..
SHE: oh yes.. i went to ur performance at macritchie.. im impressed tt in such a short time u could play well..
ME: thank you =).. mr refat talk abt u a lot in band.. and we were hoping that u could come down?
SHE: oh sure! no problem [all smiles]
ME: and can u make it as soon as possible?
SHE: not a problem =P..

we bid goodbyes.. she was rushing off to her cats.. hee.. den all de guys they so bad lor.. they bring me go dunno where.. near smu there.. lost me there.. den mai call me ask me go eat with her.. of course la.. MAI above all else.. so i walked back.. 20 mins plus!! poor mai wait fr me so long.. her band attitude with her la.. so angry with her peeps lor.. very political.. my band not tt bad.. just hav diff cliques but still can gell together u knw?
den we go eat [laksa~!] and i treat her here and there la =).. at nyt.. msg piggy.. he angry angry all [aww.. pinch pinch].. cause shuqun performing tt day at macritchie.. and he didnt knw.. =(.. mUack mUack baby.. den i told him la.. so upset with tsmb.. sighh.. funny leh.. the night before when i slept i dreamt of nth but music.. bt on sunday night.. i could nt sleep at all..

[3] today.. doomsday [12 july 2004].. it started well enough.. had volleyball for pe.. liked the pain.. missed it.. and ppl who i thought were my friends.. [sighh].. cindy and gang.. they are so horrible.. so selfish.. so self centred.. so.. cant believe that i was with them once.. cindy without valentina is no one.. stupid girl.. olivia is sitll ok.. she broke her nail btw [LOL].. i teamed with razeenah sok hwa and lingling for the game.. ling2 laugh laugh like mad like that.. cause sok hwa reali cartoon.. den razeenah also =P.. went to eat recess.. complain to mable lee abt the food price [so typical auntie hor? =P].. day went well.. time for oral.. msged piggy tt i was nervous but mr lim told us to put our hp in the bag.. very nerve wrecking.. reading was ok.. DURING PREPARATION.. inside.. duno what i was doing.. reading so fast.. close to breaking down.. den during conversation.. i knew wat i wanted to say in english.. just culdnt get it out.. me being me.. pretended all was ok.. smile smile all.. cheerful cheerful all.. i knew what i needed then - piggy.. straightaway after oral i called him.. waited a long time.. suddenly he cancelled call.. maybe he was busy or his dad with him or sth.. waited awhile to see if he called back.. wanted to see him.. wanted a huggy huggy.. msged him twice but no reply.. i accompanied ben and hendy go eat opp.. den i head home.. raining like mad.. bad mood.. wanted to cry so bad.. typically when im upset and dun wana break down of ppl.. i'll just stuff food in my mouth as fast and as much as possible at one time.. den go lie down.. he msged say he waking up.. bt never msg after tt.. msg again but he replied late.. duno why im so hung up on tis.. mai so nice all [she msged me earli morning.. wish me luck.. so did ali.. tks guys].. watched get real.. abt girls getting drunk and all.. while writing tis.. di di told me tt he gt selected to go NCO camp.. lucky guy.. i told him tt when i didnt get in i cried like mad.. sighh.. den i lied to him tt refat made it compulsory for the band to go marist concert.. AND I FORGOT ABT MAI!! poor thing.. i see la.. so stress la.. i so hate today.. =(.. feel like gorging myself..

riahh ranted at 9:17:00 PM