Sunday, June 20, 2004
hi bloggy.. tis morning i wanted to blog so bad cause i was just so upset.. [i knw i knw all drama mama.. but STILL] but then as the day progressed well hehe i guess i felt better.. there were many reasons that made me upset.. and tis time im gona focus! and write down in order what reali bothered me.. so i dun go all over the place.. ok [deep breath in] here it goes.. [deep breath out]

[1] band on sat.. late again [so what else is new?] and i owe them 11 rnds [aRghh].. uh huh pigs was pretty fed up that day cause we [the band] just aint playing right.. plus many peeps didnt go too.. and my section kena three rnds [double aRghh] but i didnt mind.. was thinking during band [i usually do when pigs is with the trumpets] and i realized tt i didnt care tt much what he did to me during band.. cause in band he's my conductor and after band he's my.. [ahem ahem.. its my blog i knw but i still am shy].. spent the whole noon at ps.. being bitchy again [sowee pardon my lang] wanted to eat at foodcourt.. the result? had to wait almost an hr for a free table.. tt lady there purposely chat and chat and chat with her friend.. reali angry sia den show attitude all.. den i bite bite him again all.. food also not tt nice come to think of it.. sowee le pigs.. u reali got high level of patience le.. still can cheer me up all.. after tt went to the music store look arnd at drums [made pigs seem like a little boy again] and den headed to the yamaha store.. looked thru the instruments and the scores.. wahh.. i just have to buy tt book for tbones [all melody =P].. looked thru the possible scores for the band and we decided to take the music theory exams next year [grade 4 and 5].. well i only have grade 1 [hehe].. headed to swensons for celebrity brownies and a sarsapilla [=P] watched nanyang poly perform at istana park [where we meet some of the band peeps] den headed dwn to conference hall for the concert.. met kenny joe chun meng and felt uncomfortable.. VERY

during concert he was happy sitting with joe and kenny.. =P.. i was reali honestly happy seeing him like that.. i mean he would laugh and make fun of them a lil and all.. and there's a diff i guess btw normies [non-musicians] and us [band peeps].. kenny was very into ivanhoe.. and they all got excited during the tribute for elvis.. surprised [yes no doubt; i've never seen him like tt before] but happy.. i was the one who jerked andy so that he hit ur head.. im sorry i didnt mean to rile u up.. honestly i didnt.. sowee pigs.. forgive forgive wor =(.. after tt i planned to go supper with andy and vincent cause i reali tot pigs gona go back with kenny caren they all.. =(.. den he called me and i invited him.. andy told me he didnt want to stay but i persuaded him.. well it was a pretty uncomfortable evening.. ordered satay den vincent [who wanted to treat] asked us what we wanted to say and i cheerfully said 'all coke' and den pigs who was talking to me rudely tried to brush him off.. he just said 'coke.. coke' and den he paid for everything.. silly him.. andy msged me and sed tt vincent scared to eat [sorry guys.. will eat with u nxt time.. just 3 of us ok?].. was reali upset with him over tt.. reali reali upset.. bite bite him again.. morning i woke up and still felt bad.. tt means it was a major thing for me.. he's sweet u knw.. keep on telling me tt he'll get upset if i got hm so late.. i gt home arnd 11.30.. he sent me hm the sweetie [mUah mUah]..

[2] today morning.. i clean forgot tt it was fathers' day.. woke to pigs' msg and de toopid phone ringing like mad.. it was mai and she asked me to open de door.. tt lame ass after spending the night at the chalet.. soo early.. watched tv den mummy started nagging me.. asking me when i want to give daddy the tatami.. first my bro sleep [pig] den ask mai and she say she want to give it together.. so ok lor.. but daddy busy with sth so we wait.. when daddy ok alrdy mai go toilet.. when mai come out daddy go shower.. bloody fed up.. so i told her off la.. read newspaper inside den take so long.. and den i saw my music file.. i was so happy so i went to her and told her tt ive gt la storia.. and tts right pigs her standard answer 'so?' which hurt me a lot.. ya ok big deal.. so ur band plays better songs den mine.. ur band have better players den mine.. ur band is better at everything than mine.. well im excited at having new scores to play.. what im feeling is what ur feeling when u first got new pieces to play too.. so whats de diff? cant u be happy for me? im hurt by what she said but i didnt tell her.. i just said 'well u didnt have to be so proud' [i hate myself at tis point for crying].. den her friend called and she was happily chatting away so i gave the pressie to ma dad.. gave him a kiss and wished him happy daddy day.. turns out we couldnt go seoul garden for dinner cause he's working.. well im hoping..

[3] mummy say want to go to the satchi [leather bags and stuff] see whether got the briefcase she want to get for daddy.. she say after asar want to go.. den i watch tv lor.. den kor kor call me [he's in korea now btw.. till next sunday.. boo hoo =(] yeah and like after he ended i ask mummy when want to go let me knw den she fed up fr no reason say dun wan go already.. den i shower shower all [aRghh].. reali want to bite bite ppl arr.. den she say just buy dinner home ar.. after maghrib den go.. wat only sehh.. but just in case i call daddy first in case he say can go.. he say he at woodlands liao.. say he finish arnd 7.30 to 8.. i was so pathetic i could laugh at maself.. 'den we go wait for u there la!'.. and daddy said no need la.. later we wait too long no good.. yeah with tt.. totally dashed my hopes.. ok dokie.. whatever.. dun wan go dun go arr.. not tt i care when i actually do care.. deep down i do.. i want us to come back together as a fam.. den we buy back bk.. daddy called before we went out and i tot he was already on the way home.. not happy just tt my spirits lifted.. when i reached home he wasnt there.. i called him and he sed he'll be home soon.. we still at together.. but it felt weird sitting together and eating.. =(.. nvm tt..

well what reali lifted me up today was when i went to buy dinner.. i saw jerry [teammate: mOunt opHiR] at the amphitheater so i was like 'hey jerry!' and was waving like mad and all.. and he was smiling and waving back and all his soccer friends were like cheering and all =P.. hehe.. oh and when pigs msged me in the evening with a simple msg [babes.. i miss u] no less.. hehe well.. melted me.. just melt and melt and melt and melt =P

ok so now waiting for three am.. so can call pigs up =P.. ask him wake up watch soccer.. toodle doo.. [oh vatsan.. happy 18th!]

riahh ranted at 11:27:00 PM